Feel like Poop

I feel so sick today. I have not slept good all week, started Sunday to Monday morning, I had to come home early from work. I had a massive sleep deprivation headache. It still has not gone away, going on day 3 here.

I just want to go home and take a nap. I am supposed to go to my mom's house after work, take out the garbage and bring her some chicken I made last night. I'm worried that I may be coming down with a cold or the flu. That is the last thing I need on top of being sleep deprieved. If I get sick I cannot go near my mom, if she gets sick it will send her to the hospital.

So frustrated!

dad's b-day

Today is my father's b-day. I just remembered the date when I came to work. Am I going to call him and wish him a happy b-day - nope.

I hate my father. _ better known as a Sperm Donor.

I've never received a phone call on my b-day from him since his longtime girlfriend dumped him. She was the only reason he knew my brother and I's b-days. The 6 months I've received 2 e-mails from him, bot hurging me to join a singles website - WTF - I am MARRIED~! He knows this because I asked him to help my mom pay for the wedding, which he did not contribute a dime.

My Valentines Day

Well, the day came and passed. I had cereal for dinner, hubby worked late, had dinenr at work.

I went drinking with my male best friend - Greg, we had a few drinks listened to some music at the bar. Saw some of my good friends at the bar. I'm a regular at this one spot, I feel like Norm on Cheers when I walk in...

I made my way home to the hubs - he was home a bit earlier, just after 9. We had a good quiet night together.

We are going to celebrate tonight and watch Eastern Promises, which Greg lent to us. I am thinking of making fondue or maybe steak?

another day

Today is just Thursday, I am staying the night with my mom tonight, so I won't see my hubby till after work Friday.

I am thankful that the week is almost over! I am tired. I am drained.

I feel like I've started to distance myself from some of my closest friends lately. It seems like there is so much going on.

I made a few resolutions this year:
Slowly cut back on alcohol and stop by April 22 (day after our First wedding anniversary).
Try to conceive a baby by end of summer.
Save money for a down payment.

New Year

Ready for a New Year already...I am so tired of 2007. When this year began, it was supposed to be a magical year - I was getting married & my best friend announced she was expecting her first baby. So far so good... In February my mom was diagnosed with Inflammatory Breast Cancer (www.ibcresearch.org), in November my grandma had a "mini stoke". My grandma is doing good, no lingering problems, her medication was adjusted. My mom just finished radiation on Friday 12/21. In a matter of minutes my life and my family's life was turned upside down.

I dreaded the holidays, and I thankfully survived without any major meltdowns. I am relieved that the holidays are over. I love Christmas, but this year it was just too hard to be happy. I am hoping and praying with all my heart to have a better 2008. All of our family needs a better 2008. My mom has yet another round of chemo to battle the cancer - it's slated to start in Januray. I pray that it won't be too hard on my mom's body. I am starting to really think that Denny and I should move in with my mom to help her more around the house, especially when the chemo starts getting to her body.