Hoping to Conceive soon

Now, we've only been officially trying since January this year. I really hope to conceive soon. I just talked to my best friend in North Carolina, who just had her first little angel in November, she's asking - Pregnant yet? No Jess, not yet. I do remember that it took her about 8-9 months before she was able to conceive.

I just really hope to be pregnant by the summer time. I really want to ensure my mom's presence in our children's lives.

TTC update

Well,

I think we may have hit the right times this month, but no way of telling. All my ovulation calculators say different dates. I guess that we will find out come time for AF to come, should be around 3/10/08. We shall see.

D is starting to get more into the baby thing, I bought a Pregnancy book a few months ago, we flip through and read it almost everyday.

I still need to make a pre-conception appt. I stopped taking all medications except a Pre-natal vitamin. The stopping is starting to take its toll on my mood though, I've been on anti-depressants since my mom was diagnosed with cancer 2 months before our wedding. I can feel the stess.

I had a long talk with my mom last night. She asked if we pushed up the TTC for her. I told her not really, that we are ready, which is partially true. It really does not matter why. D does not want me telling as many people that we are TTC, because of pressure, which I understand.

Feel like Poop

I feel so sick today. I have not slept good all week, started Sunday to Monday morning, I had to come home early from work. I had a massive sleep deprivation headache. It still has not gone away, going on day 3 here.

I just want to go home and take a nap. I am supposed to go to my mom's house after work, take out the garbage and bring her some chicken I made last night. I'm worried that I may be coming down with a cold or the flu. That is the last thing I need on top of being sleep deprieved. If I get sick I cannot go near my mom, if she gets sick it will send her to the hospital.

So frustrated!

dad's b-day

Today is my father's b-day. I just remembered the date when I came to work. Am I going to call him and wish him a happy b-day - nope.

I hate my father. _ better known as a Sperm Donor.

I've never received a phone call on my b-day from him since his longtime girlfriend dumped him. She was the only reason he knew my brother and I's b-days. The 6 months I've received 2 e-mails from him, bot hurging me to join a singles website - WTF - I am MARRIED~! He knows this because I asked him to help my mom pay for the wedding, which he did not contribute a dime.

My Valentines Day

Well, the day came and passed. I had cereal for dinner, hubby worked late, had dinenr at work.

I went drinking with my male best friend - Greg, we had a few drinks listened to some music at the bar. Saw some of my good friends at the bar. I'm a regular at this one spot, I feel like Norm on Cheers when I walk in...

I made my way home to the hubs - he was home a bit earlier, just after 9. We had a good quiet night together.

We are going to celebrate tonight and watch Eastern Promises, which Greg lent to us. I am thinking of making fondue or maybe steak?

David Paul Quiroz - 9/28/79 - 5/23/04

David Paul Quiroz, 25, passed away on May 23, 2004 in Campbell. He leaves behind his mother, Cathi Blackwood; his sister, Chari Blackwood and her husband, Albert, and their sons, Levi and Quinn; hisa aunt, Donna Webb; his aunt, Mary Madonna and her husband, John, and their children, Anthony Madonna (his cousin and best friend), Krys Seeley and her husband Ed, and their children, Josselyn, Spencer and Trever, and Thomas Madonna and his partner David Hall; his aunt, Barbara Salmon and her sons, Floyd and Brian. David is dearly missed by his family and his friends. He will always be in our hearts, our thoughts, and our prayers. A Funeral Mass will be held at 11:00am on June 12, 2004 at Our Lady of Peace Catholic Church, 2800 Mission College Blvd., Santa Clara. Following that, at 2:00pm, there will be a Celebration of Life at Cypress Hotel, 10050 S. DeAnza Blvd., Cupertino, CA. The family requests no flowers. In lieu of flowers, donations may be made in David s name to Make-A-Wish Foundation.
Published in the Monterey Herald on 6/9/2004.

Today marks 1 year

Today is the one year anniversery of my mom being diagnosed with Inflammatory Breast Cancer (IBC). In some ways it is good, surviving one year, makes you a cancer survivor. But on the other hand, it's been one long year of hell for all, especially my mom. My mom has been strong in facing cancer, her faith is strong, her will is strong.



In the past few months my hubby and I made a decision: Push up Starting to Trying to Conceive to now, we were going to wait until Summer 2008, but why wait?



I desperately want my Mom to meet and spend as much time as she can with my children. I love my mom so much, she has always been an inspiration to me, and my best friend.