Another update on my mom

Well today we (my mom, grandma, great aunt and I) went to see my mom's Oncologyst. I was prepared with all my notes and documents to fire him.

I ripped him a new one, I was very strong and held my ground that I felt that - point blank receiving the best treatment she could be and that we WERE going to get a second opinion. I told him my dissapointment of her changed diagnosis after 8 months.

I was very pleased with the results and although I know he felt like he was being attacked, he at the end agreed with my voice and told me that if he were me that he'd do the same thing if it were his mom.

I feel very good, although still worried about the re-occurance that may or may not occur. It's left in God's hands, which I can handle. My mom and I are going to start going to a Catholic Church and get confirmed as a Catholic, it will be a good experience for my mom and I to go through together.

TTC Update & Mom update

Well, Just another boring Monday - no AF yet. I'm patiently waiting to see if she'll visit today. I'm getting an anxious feeling over this, I'm starting to worry that I had a M.C. last month, I had some signs, but did not go to get checked out. If I don't start by tomorrow morning....

My Mom has her last 2 infusions of Chemo on Tuesday (4/8/08 and 4/15/08) We are meeing with her Oncologyst to discuss her IBC. I am bringing my notes and blasting him - firing him and getting my mom a second opinion. Thank God. I hope all goes well.

Tomorrow is my Birthday

I'm off of work tomorrow - they give us our B-days off or a floating holiday. I chose the day, I'm going to spend the day with my mom, maybe go my my hubby's salon to get my hair styled. We're going out to dinner with my mom, grandma, brother and his wife and my niece and nephew! I love spending time with my family, it makes me so happy! I'll be the big 31 -whoopty-do.

I hope that the weekend will be fun and relaxing. I need a break. I still feel a bit of sadness....please go away sadness, please.

hope

Hope is a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life. Hope implies a certain amount of despair, wanting, wishing, suffering or perseverance — i.e., believing that a better or positive outcome is possible even when there is some evidence to the contrary.


I still have hope that my friends and my mom will get better from the disease.

I've lost a friend to cancer already, it hurts. I have two friends that are fighting now.

back at home

Well I had a short busieness trip to Rocklin on Thursday to Friday afternoon. It was short and interesting, I've never been to Rocklin before.

I had a interesting experence in a coffee shop Friday morning:

Hott Coffee

Walk in all men patrons. Look behind the counter blonde 18ish year olds, wearing bikini tops and the shortest shorts ot skirts you've seen, WOW. Very strange for 8AM to be dressed like that, it was their uniforms. Only in Cali. The cappiccino was okay, nothing special.

still sad

I had a sad day all day yesterday, and today it continues. As my husband would put it, I am empathetic to a fault.

I stopped taking anti-depression medicine when we began TTC, and this is the result. I hate having to rely on a medicine to make me more normal. I hope that I can go back on them soon...I feel like I'm a mess without them.

Sadness today

I found out that this lady lost her fight to IBC this morning. Her name is Susan, her husbands name is Warren. I don't know much more than that other than she had been okay earlier this month, nad now is in the hands of God. He battle against IBC ended this morning at M.D. Anderson in Houston, Texas around 10 AM.

I just wish a cure could be found, it's hard to know what a deadly disease Breast Cancer can be, especially IBC. I still have hope though, I have heard of survivors of IBC up to 17 years.

I have a stupid business trip to go to tomorrow night - only an overnight trip, so not bad. I just don't feel like being away for a night.